| Wednesday, April 08, 2009 |
| Here to put up a pic.... words and pic specially done by me... haha.... anyway life has gone through a little change... but right now.... my focus will still be on studies... pia my studies... i had to meet my aim of 60 above for mid year... shall blog more when june comes... cya.... :).....
Labels: `life is a never-ending road.... |
| Friday, March 13, 2009 |
| Common test are over…. Glad that it is over… but fear of getting the results now… I know I did not really study for this common test… did not have the mood actually… haix… but I promise myself not to let the same thing happen for mid years ler… I must work hard…. Recently… some personal problem arise…. Though I try to keep my emotions aside and stay focus… I cannot really do so… felt lost… did not know what should I do… but after the long ride home yesterday… I decided I really should let it go… I really should just stop thinking of it… I should divert all these hopeless to my strength for studying… instead on pondering a problem that cannot solve in the near future... why not I work on something more practical… like getting myself to a uni… getting to a course I want… I really do not want to feel regret…. Haix… but I really dunnoe what wrong with my life… for PSLE year, Olvl year and now As… I have to face the same prob…. I really wish I can wake up and pull myself up much earlier this year… much earlier than two years ago… To all my friends… thanks for adding joy to my life these few weeks… really appreciate… haha… sorry never share much with u all… but I believe I can settle on my own and this kind of prob is better if I deal it by myself…. Anyway thanks for all the support… laughter… and fun times…. Lastly this is something I wrote long ago… decided to put it up now…it is something I felt last year… I will always love you No matter what Even if you love another girl My heart will always be you I will always be your guardian angel Protecting you from afar Standing by you everytime I will continue loving you Thinking of you every hour Missing you every minute Worried about you every second This is how much I love you Seeing you with another girl Breaks my heart But i will never break yours Only give you all blessings to you This is how much I love you That a love called sacrifice That why I decided To protect you from afar To support you anytime Showing how much I love you But this year i decide to... Labels: `keep u as a memory..... |
| Sunday, March 01, 2009 |
| life has been normal but fast pace these days... normal in the sense that nothing much really happen... however, days are passing very fast... studies are going on in a fast pace too.... because of many recent activities i took part.... it's been tough for me to catch up... moreover, i had somehow lose my motivation to study recently... not only studies... practically lose motvation to do anything... to work hard to achieve something... how come fel turn out like this... i really do not know... anyway had a great cry after got scolded by instructor for not dancing well... i know that and it is all due to not enough practise... sorry mr dan.... i will practise harder and improve next time... however... i cry not because he scolded me... but cause of the stress level i have from work... the inability to have the motivation to study... to even try to do so... i kept wondering where did the old fel go... has she disappear... has the workaholic fel left.... i really wish she will come back... i terrbily need her this year... someother things has somehow bother me recently... and i hope that these thoughts will be gone... or at lest be kept deep in my brain till As are over... lastly, thanks to all friends and juniors for comforting me and support me... Labels: `hope to see you again... |
| Sunday, February 08, 2009 |
| long time no blog... have been very busy and stress up lately... it is only first month of school... but i am feeling the stress ler... though work load seems to be lesser than J1... but lesson are so packed that u do not get much break to help to complete homework... and lesson end so late ... by the time i get home... i am too tired to do anything... sian... this call for greater need of time management which is what i am very weak in... sian... also i need to monitor my stress level... health isn't good ler.. if i get too stress, my body might just break down... haha... so fel must remain calm and happy.... this year, i really wish my family members will understand my needs... hoping that they will support my decision... if i made any very wrong choice... talk to me like having a discussion... i can forsee that this year my chances of having emotional break down will be greater and more frequent... i really hope and wish not to be sandwiched in between anymore... my cous told me that in order to break free i need to rebel... but i don't think this is a good way... i do not want my parents to ignore me totally too... maybe you may say i am not ready to be free... but i just feel that rebelling is not a good way... it is tiring too... but till now i am finding a better way... hope i can the answer soon.... anyway... on a happier tone... first five days of acad orientation end... haha.. c7 is great... love them lots... haha happy to see them bonded together... but very sad that they had to split up soon... sian... hope that next week we can get together and take a group pic... haha... Labels: `loving u in secret... |
| Wednesday, January 07, 2009 |
| Hey… its 7jan…. haha yesterday I officially turn into 18… legal age ler… can smoke, drink and many more… haha… but nah I am not going to drink or smoke lar… haha… dislike the bitter taste in alcoholic drinks and the smoke from cigarettes… haha… anyway… today going to thanks people and report my three birthday celebrations… though not grand… but I love it… haha…. K start off with thanks first…. Thanks all peeps who wish me….(in no order) Samuel David Alwin Junyi Minli Vanessa Christopher Jasmine Michelle Leonard Daron Maxine Vivian Violet Rachelle Sok Loon Dilys Hui Ying Shu yi Clara Lynn lee Joanna Chua Denis Ho Wirda Syazwani Jin Kai Zhi Xian Sorry if I have left out anyone…. Thanks for all the wishes…. First celebration…. I will give credits to my childhood friends and family… haha... on Sunday… went to pasir park… cycle a bit… haha… was sick so kind of tired… after wards talk to dad for quite some while… then went to elias mall to eat… haha… the food super delicious… thanks dilys for choosing… you yan kuang… haha... thanks the ong family for the bd gift… haha…. Then on Monday…. Haha… went back school for ogl walk-in practice… haha… my group super funny… initially no idea what pose… but out of sudden dave shouted titanic… so in the end doing some titanic pose… the boys going to shout : u jump, I jump… haha…. Later in the evening… 1s09 having class bbq… haha… meet Vannessa at hougang then went to parkway parade together… haha… meet Bernice there… then went to cold storage and giant to shop for additional stuff…haha… have a hard time gettinga cheap brush… haha… then took taxi to ecp.. haha… reach there… and the sky was not positive… luckily in the end was ok…. Haha… start fire quite some time… ky did not really know how… haha… fire took about 2 hours before it was ready to bbq anything… haha… In the night, the class surprise me and jas with birthday cake… haha… thanks tricia for the cake… haha… sang bd song and cut cake…. Haha… I san for jas and she sang for me… haha… took many pics… and talk all night… haha… was back home about midnight… but it was fun… thanks 1s09… haha…. On actual day… 6 jan… went school again for ogl… haha… luckily no one know it was my bd… if not I would have spray paint all over me… haha… that night after tuition, went back home to cut cake with family… haha…. cake was not bad… bro took very nice pics of me and cake… will post it some time… haha…. Labels: `i shall wait no more... |
| Saturday, January 03, 2009 |
| it is the third day in 2009.... haha... k going to blog some past, present and future.... recently, i went to visit my grandma.... omg... when i saw her, i was so heartbroken.... she was so skinny... and she cannot control her right leg... and her left arm cannot bend... also she forgets most of us... but i know she is trying real hard to remember... she manage to recall me and my younger bro.... and she had never forget my dad... haha... because this son-in-law of hers always will buy her cigarette in the past.... haiz..... her memory stop at two years ago.... cause when ask her to guess me and bro age... she said mine was 15... haixx..... anyway brought her out to the nearby coffee shop.... then my bros and I push her back first before the rain start pouring... while my aunt and mum went to buy her fav waffle.... oh yea.... and when we were about to go... she ask from us 2 dollars to buy cigargette.... haha... my bro play along and put "2 dollars" in her hand.... she put it inside her pocket.... and claims she has "four dollars" inside now.... i really hope she can get well, eat more..... 婆婆，我爱你.... for my last moment in 2008... it was spent in clarke quay.... haha... it was the second time i was at clarke quay in that hour... haha.... but my first time celebrating new year there.... ok.... it was fun as it has the qi fen.... but then you had to squeeze, squeeze and squeeze.... which is something i don't quite like.... haha.... before the countdown.... we were stationed at fashion bar.... but all the kids went to walk around in clarke quay.... talk and walk... haha.... stop at the bungee jumping for a while... since can't sit.... my bro wanted to watch.... haha... then for the countdown.... the kids were near the stage within the crowd.... haha... got quite alot of "snow" on my back... haha.... balloons drop from above and many went to burst it... haha.... ironically.... it did not sound like balloon burst but more like fireworks... at the same time.... marina bay let out the fireworks.... haha.... it was an amazing view.... haha... oh yea that day the msg was jam around 10 pm... 2 hours before midnight... so early lor.... goodbye 2008 and hello 2009.... haha... a new year... a new beginning.... i hope that i can start anew.... and my very first policy is to ace my As.... get into healthcare courses in uni.... next, to be less hot-tempered at home.... third, brush up my comunication skills with people.... forth, able to dance to the music... no matter how fast it is.... and something that i should accomplish long ago is TO MANAGE TIME.... but most importantly is to stay calm and happy... i want to thank for everything that happen in 2008... be it happy or sad... thanks for all the friend i meet and made.... thanks for all the lesson to be learn.... thanks for all the experience i gain... thanks everyone who are helping me in anyway... thanks for all the memories that i can keep.... time fly real fast.... it is the year of As now.... Spring, Summer Autumn, Winter Different seasons As years goes by Sun lit the day And moon shines at night Settings change As time passes by Labels: `good bye 2008... hello 2009... |
| Sunday, December 28, 2008 |
| haha... 9 more days to 18 years old ler... haha... anyway this year christmas was spend very differently... On christmas eve... my family and dilys' family went to eat taiwan porridge... and late sat mrt to somerset... got down and walk all the way to lucky plaza... haha... on the road... saw all the lightnings.... oh by the way... is it my first time coming to orchard for christmas... haha... anyway saw many people had "snow" fight... was caught in a couple of fights too... haha... youngest bro and mum was scared of the "snow".... i told them it is only soap... can wash off de... but they still scared... anyway wanted to cross the underpass to wisma... and see what's happening there... cause it seems to have a stage and some performance... however... the police cornered off the place and we had to make a big turn... sian... in the end miss the countdown.... haha.... so later took train back to yio chu kang lor.... oh yea... ivan bro had an idea to random greet people merry christmas... haha... in the end we greeted the people on the train lor.... haha... oh yea that day... he took up to 53 pics... haha amazing... but most of it are lame and random shots... haha.... On christmas... mum, two bros and me clear up the store room... sort out the stuff that want to give to the salvation army and one of my neighbours' daughter... haha...i was assgined to dust off the things... but then my poor nose is allergic to dust... hehe... bro then gave me a "kou zhao" to wear... it works... did not have cold after the cleaning... anyway clear things off.... and found out we bought lots of soft toys... haha... so donated those to the salvation army ler... but we left some toys... so that if my dear nephews and nieces come they can play.... haha... the day after christmas... we all went to put all our donation to the box at marina.... haha... watch "bedtimes stories" yesterday... it was not bad... haha very hilarious... the guniea pig sure have very big eyes... haha... anyway have some take away in the movie.... a story can have happy ending... it all depends how you write.... so one's life should be the same... it all depends what is your choice and whether you want it to end happily.... will be visiting my grandma later... hope she still remember me and my family... very long never see her ler... Labels: `keeping a distance... |
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