| Thursday, May 18, 2006 |
| haixxx..... tis wk all i can sae ish haixxxx..... results..... 6 out of 8 FAIL.... fail okie.... not pass.... i dunnoe y... try soooo hard still fail... yeh maybe study = fail.... now all i wan ish to kill miself....reali.... i wan to SHOUT....CRY... THROW THINGS..... i dunnoe wat to do .... i m lost..... todae tot of stuffs.... i felt dat i m not mi.. i dunnoe hu am i....wo shi sui....haixxxxx...... yeh....maybe meixxx sae correct i m numb.... but how to unnumb miself....i dunnoe how... i try but fail...c fail....haixxxxx..... now i dun even noe wats mi feelin... after gettin the results... i lik total mess in mi head.... i hav all kind of feelin.... sad...hapi....disappoint...hate... wats tis....hu am i.... oh yea... browsin testi and tags... erm... sori to those hu i offended.... dats wat i feel lah.... veri sori to those i offend them in anyway... i lost motivation....after sec 1.... after i step into zhss....all along my motivation comes from you.... sec 1... i hav tis craxy thought in my mind... and dat is to transfer to ur sch or to go the same jc as u... i knew ur expectation ish high and the sch u go to too.... so i knew i nid to work extra hard..... i told mi close friends whenever they ask mi wat make mi work soo hard.... my ans ish u.... reali... i dunnoe y but is jus u hu can do tis.... everybody sae i siao.... but am i.... haixxx.... i dunnoe.... after dat.... i tried to go into ur sch and i fail.... den i tink even if i could go into ur sch wats the point.... den i stop tinkin abt u.... i try miself to stop hav dat feelin for u..... now yesh i stop... to mi now u are a thing of a past onli a hidden memory inside mi...haixxx.... and sooo do my motivation.... is gone gone 4eva..... i wonder will dere be anyone lik u to find it for mi again..... haixxxx..... *i hope u are by myside now* |